I had a before and after, monumental shift in perception in 2004.
Someone told me the Hawaiian saying: “Bless that which you want” meaning that if there is something you see in another that makes you angry or jealous, instead of giving in to scarcity and evil sarcasm, to bless it instead.
It turned my life around, but at first it also made me angry. I was angry because it felt like too much. This was too big of a shift.
I would have to let go of something I had invested my whole life in, envying and blaming others for something I did not have. And so far, that had felt good.
Never mind that it was leaving me empty and starved, because at least I felt the false dignity of self-righteousness.
Now, going even further and blessing it was completely out of my comfort zone at the time.
That was WAY too much.