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Coming Out: The Lethal Dose

I already have the lethal dose, the 7 mg of Amitriptyline, it’s easy to get the rest for the suicidal cocktail.  Now what? I’m scared that’s what. What if it doesn’t work and the psycho-psychiatrist I have at the moment gets me in a hospital under his control.  He was talking frigging electroshock the last time I saw him. W T F!

Once I asked him, the psychiatrist, where he was from. He said he would never tell me anything about him cause he is the ‘doctor’ and I’m the ‘patient’. Mansplaining in the most despicable way.

But he is not what is wrong with this photo.… Read the rest

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How I Quit Sugar

This was not give up sugar and keep eating granola. No. This was no sugar, no flour, no grains, no syrups or brown molasses or agave or anything close. Nothing.  The real #nosugar.

My grandmother gave me my first cup of coffee (Instant) with 3 SUGARS at age 6.  Then she talked to me as if I was an adult, and my thoughts came together intelligently.

But I decided not to publish unless a whole four weeks of abstinence had gone by because you never know with a powerful drug like sugar. And Alas! the days have passed and the month mark is near, in exactly: 20 minutes.  … Read the rest

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Yoga: 9 Changes that Completely Transformed Me

It’s not improving but unfolding that makes us grow.  We are fine the way we are, and it makes me uncomfortable when someone tries to tell me something that will “make” me better.  Our own process is precious, unique, special, and nobody knows what the next best step is, not even us.

Image by Alex Grey

Still there is no denying that the world we live in tends to attack our natural process of unfolding, large billboards show us what one in a million women look like (a model) and we think maybe we are not right, or the level of noise from the person sitting next to us on the train and talking non-stop drives us crazy, or worse, we try our best to do our job at work with a screen that is constantly shinning blue light into our eyes diminishing the mitochondria power in our vision and making us weak.… Read the rest

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Yoga: Yes You Can Be Enligthened

If you are reading this then you are ready to learn secrets of yoga that have been kept for thousands of years, not so much because they were locked away, but because getting to the core of them was too hard. Too many books to read, too many different schools and practices.

I am creating a new bookclub (chapter by chapter exploration) of the book Samadhi.  See the bottom of this article for the book club I did on his pranayama book.

I wish I was

It is possible to attain the highest freedom

It is possible to attain the highest freedom, click on the book to read with me

free from thoughts, and that nothing woul bother me, I wish I was what people say is enlightened, a state of flow, or Samadhi, but life has a way to give us experiences so that we learn what we need to learn when we are ready.… Read the rest

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